So, fuck that.
I had my journal locked for a long time because of paranoia over fanfic and smut and junk. >>
Who care? Just don't read it if you don't like it.
:P
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You made it so hard. With each smile and each little quirk and each uptight ridiculous lecture. Every time you said my name so politely and kicked me under the table, out to dinner with friends, sitting next to each other by default as the bachelors, I wanted to kick you back and laugh and say your name in my dirtiest sexiest voice.
I told myself I wouldn't love you, that no amount of inside jokes or walking-too-close moments could make whatever friendship was between us something like love.
And now, looking down at your scarred back, one hand fisted in your dark hair and the other balancing myself against your bed, my cock spent and wilting inside your body, my thighs shaking with the effort of not collapsing over you entirely, I know that I have succeeded.
I don't love you. I don't even want you, now that it's over, have no desire to crawl into your bed again.
It's very good for me that I don't love you, really. Because if I did, it would hurt an awful lot that it wasn't my name you whispered as you came.
It's all right; I don't love you. And I'll keep saying it until we both believe it, or at least until it drowns out that single soft word in my mind.
And tomorrow, when I punch the swordsman and see how much blood I can make him cough up, it won't have anything to do with you at all.
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I'm moving to Tennessee. Like, next week. O.O
My husband and I are kaput. O.O
My son is three years old and definitely having developmental issues.
I don't know what to say/think/do about my life other than get the hell out of here and straighten things out from there.
I want to do some writing. I have a Kakashi/Iruka fic in the works, an old one I had started and pushed aside and now want to write. Plus some original stuff that I want to work on for NANO.
Yeah.
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Only as a child, and only for entirely the wrong reasons. When I was a little kid, I desperately wanted to be like other people. Not just like everyone else in the "I want designer clothes" way, but like everyone else enough that both the children and adults around me didn't freak out every time I opened my mouth or reminded them of my existence.
I wanted people to stop throwing those little Gideon bibles at me. I wanted teenage boys not to randomly decide they were going to burn me at the stake. I wanted to be able to walk down the hall at my freaking elementary school without someone whispering "Satan!" or "witch."
I didn't convert, but I will admit to having thought about it. I will admit to having sat in my grandmother's church -- feeling nothing, understanding nothing of what exactly I was supposed to get out of hearing about a deity I felt no connection too -- and thinking "Life would be so much easier if I could believe in this."
In the end, I couldn't do it. And as I sit here in my pajamas with my laptop, halfway across the country from where I grew up, living a very different life than I lived then, all I can say is that I still wouldn't.
I'll be twenty-nine this year. And the same Goddess I started to follow actively when I was four years old is still my Goddess now.
I think I may be forgiven a few moments of weakness, eh, Mother?
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( Just about Right. )
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The most recent rp I'm doing: Anyone interested? I think it's gonna be really fun!
 Cross Academy/Crossed Hearts About the Academy Welcome to Cross Acadamy. Founded by Kaien Cross over one hundred years ago, Cross Acadamy prides itself on being the first and best mixed Vampire/Human community. Our Night Students are hand picked as those that are keen to learn to co-exist with our Day Students. There are a few select events when the two shall meet, but beyond that our two sets of students stay separate and safe in the Sun and Moon Dormatories. The two are kept separate by the brave efforts of our Guardians, or Prefects. We hope you will consider your child as one of our many gifted students! About Us Welcome! This is a Naruto/Vampire Knight Role Play Group! Here we welcome any and all players who are interested in playing characters from the popular manga/anime Naruto and putting a little spin on them. Here, you can choose to make your character either a Day Student, or a Night Student. Day Students are the humans, but those who come to study by night are Vampires. Feel free to browse our links and hope to see you soon! GAME PLAY STARTS MARCH 25th |
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Your result for Are You a Jackie or a Marilyn? Or Someone Else? Mad Men-era Female Icon Quiz...
You Are an Ingrid!
You are an Ingrid -- "I am unique"
Ingrids have sensitive feelings and are warm and perceptive.
How to Get Along with Me
- * Give me plenty of compliments. They mean a lot to me.
- * Be a supportive friend or partner. Help me to learn to love and value myself.
- * Respect me for my special gifts of intuition and vision.
- * Though I don't always want to be cheered up when I'm feeling melancholy, I sometimes like to have someone lighten me up a little.
- * Don't tell me I'm too sensitive or that I'm overreacting!
What I Like About Being an Ingrid
- * my ability to find meaning in life and to experience feeling at a deep level
- * my ability to establish warm connections with people
- * admiring what is noble, truthful, and beautiful in life
- * my creativity, intuition, and sense of humor
- * being unique and being seen as unique by others
- * having aesthetic sensibilities
- * being able to easily pick up the feelings of people around me
What's Hard About Being an Ingrid
- * experiencing dark moods of emptiness and despair
- * feelings of self-hatred and shame; believing I don't deserve to be loved
- * feeling guilty when I disappoint people
- * feeling hurt or attacked when someone misundertands me
- * expecting too much from myself and life
- * fearing being abandoned
- * obsessing over resentments
- * longing for what I don't have
Ingrids as Children Often
- * have active imaginations: play creatively alone or organize playmates in original games
- * are very sensitive
- * feel that they don't fit in
- * believe they are missing something that other people have
- * attach themselves to idealized teachers, heroes, artists, etc.
- * become antiauthoritarian or rebellious when criticized or not understood
- * feel lonely or abandoned (perhaps as a result of a death or their parents' divorce)
Ingrids as Parents
- * help their children become who they really are
- * support their children's creativity and originality
- * are good at helping their children get in touch with their feelings
- * are sometimes overly critical or overly protective
- * are usually very good with children if not too self-absorbed
Take Are You a Jackie or a Marilyn? Or Someone Else? Mad Men-era Female Icon Quiz at HelloQuizzy
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Random autobiographical crap. Rape and violence.
( Did you read the damn warnings? )
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( Part 6 )
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( Part 2 )
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( Part 1 )
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A/N: Next chapter should either be the Kakashi/Iruka 'date' or more of this same evening/morning, with sex. I haven't decided yet. It's really tempted to write a GenIru sex scene here, reminiscent of Simply Begin, with them just being with each other. *thinks* Anyway, for anyone out there still reading, thank you!!!!
( Never Giving Up )
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You are a Badass Uke!
Other uke admire you, some seme fear you. Despite your sometimes flaming appearance, you can even fool other people into thinking you are seme with your mischievous, manipulative attitude, but when push comes to shove, your true submissive nature emerges. It takes a seme with enough intensity to challenge you and keep you satisfied, and your perfect match, the Don't Fuck With Me Seme, knows that all that naughty teasing just means you want the punishment.
Most compatible with: Don't Fuck With Me Seme, Chibi Seme
Least compatible with: Sadistic Seme, Romantic Seme
What seme or uke are you? Take the experience at SemeUke.com, or find merchandise here.
Hilary Hoover's Dewey Decimal Section:
190 Modern western philosophy
Hilary Hoover = 892185855258 = 892+185+855+258 = 2190
Class:
100 Philosophy & Psychology
Contains:
Books on metaphysics, logic, ethics and philosophy.
What it says about you:
You're a careful thinker, but your life can be complicated and hard for others to understand at times. You try to explain things and strive to express yourself.
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